RAW & AUTHENTIC

To be honest, I had so much things going on with my life that I needed to get away and by doing so, I needed to get out of reality. I didn't know how but I needed to be confused. I was hurt because there was so many prayers and I was overwhelmed by it. I didn't know how to be strong anymore. I wanted to move on with my life and I felt very safe when I was roaming around the hospital thinking that I need to leave. I felt like God was there with me throughout everything but he didn't want to let me go because I felt like Peter keeps comings back to my life and kept me very safe by telling me how much he wants to take me to see the world. I was anxious and I felt like I had Alzheimer's or if this is even reality? I didn't want to know any of my loved ones because they are just full of hope and they need to realize I will be gone. I am no longer here. I couldn't do it anymore.. I just wanted to give it up all. I was ready to go... when I told myself, I wanted to leave with a bang, I didn't know what I wish for.. I wanted a nice funeral, It was ready. I was ready... When they told me I only have a few hours to live, I was ready. I needed to go. I just couldn't do it anymore. 

UPDATE ON BEHALF OF MY SISTER IN LAW

Last Thursday, Micah was rushed to the ER because of delirium. I got a text from her best friend that day around noon regarding her condition. She was confused, asking everyone over and over again what is colon cancer, why did she get married and why did she start the go fund me account. I knew she had an infection somewhere the moment I received the text message. To be honest, I got so nervous because one of the doctors before told us that an infection ( perforation of her bowels from the tumour ) might cause her death. She was so confused that at one point she didn't recognize her family and friends. She  thought we were all strangers. She also had a seizure for 60 seconds. Her abdomen was distended, the lower part of her incision site was bleeding and when the doctor palpated it, purulent discharge was oozing out. We were told the CT scan ( abdomen) revealed that her cancer is worse. Thankfully the CT scan ( head)  result was negative.

THE SHEPARD FAMILY FOUNDATION

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"The Shepard Family Foundation mission is to help elevate underprivileged families and youth with education, leadership and positive reinforcement!"

Dear Russel & Marian,

I sincerely want to dedicate this blog because you have made a difference in my life. Thank you for listening to my story and your recent generous gift of $5000 USD for my natural treatments that I will be undergoing for the next few months.  Your generosity has given me the ability to seek more natural treatments that I didn't think was possible and another chance to fight this cancer

Words cannot express how I feel! You have given me hope and courage to fight this battle! My family and I will always be forever grateful. God Bless! 

LOVE & FAMILY

From the bottom of our hearts, thank you so much for a wonderful memory of our day that will last forever in this beautiful video of my early 26th birthday celebration. This had me in tears!

Videography Credit to Ferdi Flancia Films, http://ferdiflanciafilms.com/. 

BLESSINGS AFTER BLESSINGS

I don't even know where to begin. I am at loss for words. I can't thank enough.

Wishing Well Wedding and Event Foundation - http://wishingwellfoundation.ca/ have granted my wish to celebrate my early 26th birthday and my favourite holiday.

Deeply grateful for:

Lesley Plumley, Founder and President of Wishing Well Wedding and Event Foundation.

Lynnette Macdonald, Vice President of Wishing Well Wedding and Event Foundation.

My family and I highly appreciate your generosity! Words can't describe how sincerely thankful we are for all your help. You are truly a blessing in this community.

Olivia Kennedy, http://lovecrushweddings.com/ who executed the event and made it ALL happen.