My boyfriend and I was hesitant to go through this surgery. We felt like it was such an impulsive decision and we needed another opinion. So of course, we called my oncologist but no answer as per usual. We left a message and hoping that she can call as back as soon as possible. The surgeons on duty wanted this to get it done within 2 hours so our time was very limited.
Unfortunately, we didn't get any second opinion and we're not doctors so if they think this is critical then I need to go through this. Although, I just had the biggest feeling that this isn't right. actually it hasn't been right since last night! I really felt like this surgical team wasn't prepared or organized compared to my first one. Like I said, I just didn't feel right about this.
So after surgery, I went straight to recovery unit and I was in so much pain. I knew this was not an experienced surgical team as soon as I got out of that surgery. The epidural that they put on was completely fucked! I felt every pain and the only thing that was numb was my right leg?!?!? wtf? It should be my torso that was supposed to be numb. The nurse that was currently there kept asking me if I feel anything and I kept saying YES! I also had a hard time to talk because there was a tube in my mouth but I kept saying yes, yes, yes!! but she seem like she wasn't understanding me or trying to even fix the epidural. They completely ignored me and sent me to the general unit. I guess they just didn't want to deal with me so they passed it on to the next nurse that will have to!
So after surgery, I went straight to recovery unit and I was in so much pain. I knew this was not an experienced surgical team as soon as I got out of that surgery. The epidural that they put on was completely fucked! I felt every pain and the only thing that was numb was my right leg?!?!? wtf? It should be my torso that was supposed to be numb. The nurse that was currently there kept asking me if I feel anything and I kept saying YES! I also had a hard time to talk because there was a tube in my mouth but I kept saying yes, yes, yes!! but she seem like she wasn't understanding me or trying to even fix the epidural. They completely ignored me and sent me to the general unit. I guess they just didn't want to deal with me so they passed it on to the next nurse that will have to!
I don't know how to describe the pain that I was in. I didn't even bother trying to move because the pain was just unbearable. There were 2 nurses and an assistant nurse that had to drag me to put me in a "comfortable" bed, if I had a choice I would've stayed in that surgery bed until they keep giving me pain killers but that wasn't the procedure. As soon I was dragged to the other bed, I screamed and screamed. I wanted this to end so badly. I kept asking God, "where are you now??!?!?!? where are you now?!?!?!"
So sorry for what you're going through. I feel you, and I completely understand where you are coming from. I was also diagnosed with stage 3 colon cancer 3 months ago. I had surgery back in January. But with God's grace, mercy and his unfailing love, I was healed! Yes, true! I don't have to go through chemo or radiation. God completely restored my health and made me whole again. It's not a joke. It's real. It really happened. All my blood work and tests which includes my Pet Scan showed negative, no evidence of disease, no tumor found, no trace of cancer, it was clear!! Praise God! And I am so thankful to Jesus who is my Healer.
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I'm so sorry to hear about what you are going through, you are so young, my prayer are with you, please stay strong and possitive,
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